hmph.

I'm not sure what is happening here, but I am trying.... TRYING to let it happen. I have zero going on in the creativity department ... or so it feels. I have been in my studio for over 5 hours this morning and my accomplishments include this wildly unattractive now mustard colored canvas, that developed when my swirly yellow, red and purple just wanted to mush into one......and no still yet, no go get'em post that wants to be born onto this page.  I have cleaned, cleared, re-organized, purged, swept, saged and even sanded... and still I feel stuck.

I am scatter-brained about the grocery store, impending travel, pets, offspring and a myriad of other dailies... I am short tempered and continually apologetic for this behavior and I the deeper I try to delve into the whys and what-fors... the more lost I become...  I feel that I could (and at times do) make any excuse as to why I do not or cannot do task a.b. or c. Mostly, at the end of the day, it feels like (is) a poor excuse for what I didn't WANT to do. Yet, no one is stopping from doing what it is I want to do... they are fully encouraging it...

I just have no idea anymore what that is. The possibilities are endless, the lists are long and the support is huge... and I am facing a wall.