I am...

I make lists... long lists of "to-do's"... this isn't that kind of list... except it is, sort of.

• I am addicted to sugar: raw, processed it doesn't matter... I just need (note the NEED) & do to consume mass amounts of sugar
• I am a procrastinator (like a Ninja skilled/trained procrastinator)
• I am afraid (of success... of failure...)
• I am sad and then: I am frustrated that I am sad
• I am angry with myself
• I am a fixer of others
• I am weak
• I am stubborn
• I am the mama and all that goes with that
• I am the cleaner of pee on the floors
• I am unemployed (as a source of added income) b/c being mama is a job that I do love, just doesn't pay the bills... pays the heart =)
• I am worried about money most all the time... no, all the time.
• I am over-weight, by my rather loose standards
• I am out of shape... a fast walk around the farm and I'm out of breath and need a nap
• I am tired.... of all the negatives
• I am a "bad" student  (ie: not doing the work, not following simple direction)
• I avoid confrontation
• I am unhealthy/weak both mind and spirit
• I am unhappy with myself

I want to adjust/learn/encompass a consistent practice to alleviate or minimize the lax behaviors...

• I don't know how
• I need someone to hold me accountable to me... because 
• I am not